I only put these personal thoughts in my blog because I can't tell the people I know how I really feel. But straight, this is gonna be a long emotional post. Fair warning.
Mom called, Grandpa's not doing any better. The whole family is down there in ATL with him, so they can talk and make each other feel better. Up here in NC, it's just me. But I'm kinda feeling better, and I'm getting over the fact that he's probably not got much time left. I still wear the ring Grandpa gave me back in '05, even though I dented it in a skateboard accident. Sidd (my girlfriend) called from her mom's cellphone. Her phone lines are down. I wish I hadn't missed the call, she said her mom would get mad if I called back. We only have through Wednesday together until she leaves town for six months. I love her. I haven't even had a crush on anybody since 8th grade. No lie, and I'm in 11th. She leaves Wednesday and I can't even go say goodbye to her. She lives less than a mile from here and she's just as unreachable as the moon. Mom thinks since I'm a teenage boy that I must be the world's horniest being and that we'll have unprotected sex, or maybe do drugs or something. I would do anything (seriously, ANYTHING) to be able to keep Grandpa and Sidd here with me.